Ill-Be-Your-Suicide

Ma peatusin küll. Mitte sellepärast, et ma olin õnnelik, ei. Inimesed lõigatud et näha, kas nad ikka tunnevad. Nad usuvad tunne valu on parem siis mitte midagi. Ma peatusin, sest ma jäin oma võimet mitte midagi tunda. Kõik, mis on jäänud on valu. Pole hullu küll, keegi loeb seda niikuinii.

I'll be going back to Florida soon. I can't recall if I ever informed DA that I left. It doesn't matter though, cause as soon as I'm back It'll be like this never happened. :/ "She packs her things and she goes. She leaves the pictures hanging on the wall, she burns all her notes and she knows, she's been here too few years to feel this old. Well she always says, it would be good to go away. But if things don't work out like we think and there's nothing there to ease this ache. Then there's nothing there to make things change." ~still waiting to feel like I'm actually alive. will I ever

I wish the watching an listening an emotion parts would just go away now. You see, I think I fix a lot of things... but I only use sticks an string, so it's temporary, an never permanent. Like my state of emotion, or anything of the sort. It's true, y'know, I'm pretty much not good at anything. I don't do a damned thing as well as you or any one else for that matter. But I do have bits an pieces. Like: What DNS and IP actually mean. Subnet masks and default gateways. How to use a computer's command prompt to your disadvantage. Stars an the forever I don't believe in. How to tell when you're lying. How I am aware of everything an noth